Sweet child of mine,
10/25/2014. That was three full years ago.
When I look back at that day you were born, and see where we are today, I know we have traveled far. And traveled well in this journey.
Every year when it comes to thinking and typing a milestone post, its bittersweet. I’m happy to see you grow, but so sad that the baby I once held in my hand is becoming more and more independent. I thought my responsibilities would reduce as you grew up and that would make me feel less stressed out.
But weirdly enough, I find myself constantly missing moments of our first year, when we did everything for you. There are so many moments where we fight today because you want to do things by yourself and in your way. It takes me sometime to realize that you are growing up and asking for your independence.
Ay baby, you have taught me so much. A lot more than I could have ever learned being alone. Humility, humbleness, PATIENCE, unconditional love, slowing down are all things that make sense after you came into my life. Like the saying goes, “I may have given you life, but you gave me mine.” I couldn’t have said it any better. You truly added this ocean of love and meaning in our lives in your own special way.
This year of life– Quite an adventure ride! There’s no way I can sugarcoat this bubba, but you were an ABSOLUTE fireball! You depleted more energy than my body could even produce. This entire year, I feel I was running on ‘reserve’! You are a little boy with a strong personality and on-wheels constantly. And that combination, is lethal 😀
It was exhausting to keep you busy, safe and happy– all at once! You are your own person Sir Ayden Koshy. I can explain to you, beg you, plead with you, threaten you– but you my dear son, won’t budge, if you’ve made up that little mind of yours! Lordy Lord you have pushed every limit, every balance, and crossed every line. Gasp!
Truth be told son, even when things are crazy and mad and sad and bad for me, there’s that innocence I see on your face. You have a special way of putting a smile on my face. You have a magic about yourself, and you can light up any darkness. You’re my motivation for everything. And there’s no way I can explain that to you in words.
Your talking is still my absolute favorite. The things that come out of your mouth are downright hilarious. And I love how you put your thoughts into words. And how your reason. You have so many thoughts, imaginations and ideas in your mind and I’m always waiting to hear the creative construction of sentences you come up with.
Most signs and looks of my baby-boy have faded. You smell different. Your baby cheeks and thighs are completely gone. There are no folds of a pudgy toddler. You are now my sweet, little boy. I’m grateful every day of my life, for the role I play in your life. I am always grateful to God for placing you in my arms.
One thing I want you to hold onto in life from this year is how adamant you are to achieve what you have put your mind to. No matter what anyone says, if you have something in your mind, you ensure you try and try again no matter how much you fail. I hope as you grow up, that trait remains, cos no matter what the world says to you, I want you to achieve everything you put your mind to. As you grow older, you will realize that the world is not a kind place, and that there will be times people deliberately put you down or point a finger at you when you are not wrong. That’s only normal. But no matter what anyone says, you can be sure that you have me by your side (even if I say I’m not).
You have always loved your family more than anything. You are the happiest when we’re together, even if that means just hanging out at home, doing nothing. And I hope we will always remain this close. Appa and Mumma may not be your best friends in life, but we hope you’ll always see us as your buddies. And always be open and friendly with us.
This year we started school. And that has not been the best experience. But slowly yet steadily you learned to adjust. Thats one thing thats always been your strength- to adjust to changes and not have that adversely affect you. Kutta, you have no idea, but I am so mighty proud of you every single day for being such a resilient soul ❤
This year, you went from Mumma, Mumma, Mumma to Appa, Appa, Appa. He is your #1 person and your superstar! Mum ego is hurt for sure! But ah well, that’s ok. He is someone you try very hard to impress a lot off late. And you run inside the house so excitedly, smiling wide and your eyes so anxious to see him every single day when Mumma brings you back home from school. The only time you run to Mumma now is when Appa disciplines you or does not let you have your way or if you are sad or hurt.
Your current favorites:
- Food – Pizza, Pasta, MacnCheese (what a huge change haha)
- Fruit – Watermelon.
- Drink- Apple Juice.
- Animal – Cat.
- Toy – Trains.
- Your favorite lines – “CAN WE SEE THE TRAIN??”
- Book – Goodnight Train.
- Rhymes – Baby Shark.
- Screen time – Chu Chu TV (Sigh!).
- Activity – Anything to do with ABC’s.
- Hate- Going to bed.
Booboo-nu, we love you more than life itself. You have changed me, moulded me, broken me, built me up.. In short, you complete my life. And I absolutely adore the gazillion little nothing’s between us.
Being your Mumma is my biggest identity and pride. I savor every little thing about you (yes, a little less tantrum, attitude and action would be much appreciated!).
God bless you little one, and may the Almighty choose to shine His light upon you, always. May He hold you, guide you, lead you and protect you every minute of your life. May He achieve all the great plans He has for you. I hope you live a life that is in accordance with His will, and according to the calling and specific purpose He has for you. Even when life gives you a thousand reasons to run away from Him, never let go of your faith. If there’s anyone who can love you more than us, its Him!
Happy 3rd Birthday to my favorite boy.
Aydoos, you are the best little guy I know. I don’t nearly enough tell you how incredible you are, and how blessed we are.